Okay, I'm not going to lie. Last night I was dealing with a complete roller coaster of emotions. It started around 8 O'clock. I was expecting my wifee to be there around that time. She wasn't. So I started to feel upset. I talked to Escarpita, and started to feel a little positive. She had a game to cheer for, so I just figured "Hey, she'll just come a little later." I go to take a shower, informing my sister ahead of time that if my wifee does come, then she should let her know where I am, and blah blah blah.
Then, my best friend gives me this talk. A very informative talk, and I still thank her for that. (Thanks Hina!) But I get into the shower, and when I get out... she still isn't here. I look at the time. It's ten thirty. I don't have access to facebook. They block things on the school laptops that we can take home with us. It's blocked. I'm sad.
Thanks though, to another wife of mine (Jinx) I get a site I can use as a proxy. She gave it to me, for a completely other reason, but I not tell you why. What I do tell you, is I got on facebook. The mobile version. Ick.
I talk to my first wifee, and she tells me it's too late. I feel really really sad. I post a status on gmail. "Why does it seem like this always happens to me? I invite a friend over, or I try to go to a friends house, or even just want to meet up with them... a friend I haven't seen in forever... And it always ends up going wrong. I can never actually see them. :( I miss you guys."
This is so true though. When I try to get my wifee over, she can't come. When I try to go to Barton's, I can't come. When I try to walk with Escarpita something always comes up and it never plays out. I miss all of those friends, and can't ever seem to see them! (Except Jinx, she came over a couple times this summer.)
Then my wife and I start talking. Maybe she can come over later today? (Let's hope so.)
I still feel like crud. I'm not smiling, I give short answers with no enthusiasm or smiley faces, and I just feel like crap. I can't even write my fanfiction because I'm not in the mood. I get this idea to start a new fanfiction. One from the Point of View, of Owen. In Torchwood, Owen died. But he didn't completely die. He got brought back to life, and has now become unkillable. But he can't heal. So if he breaks his finger (which he does) he can't mend it.
So he's dead, but alive. And he can think just like normal. Which isn't normal. He starts feeling majorly depressed. He wants to die. The pain of being dead... but undead.. well it's not a good feeling.
I decided to write a fanfiction about him. From his point of view. Because I felt like crap. Writing something depressing was the only thing I could do.
Until Gonzales. Dear god, I thank you Gonzales. No seriously. Gonzales went above and beyond to get me a link so I could watch Torchwood: Miracle Day. And finally we found one. I am so happy. My day immediately get's brought back up. I start watching it (still a little blue) and by the time I see Captain Jack Harkness, I'm giggling like a fool. The rest of the night/morning went the same way. I watched Torchwood, got some burritos, and watched more Torchwood.
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